There were a lot of things going on with me the past week. I’ve been trying to squeeze my blog on my sked, unfortunately I didn’t have ample time. Anyway, I miss this. I miss writing my thoughts the minute I think about it.
First off, I officially transferred to another room. It sucks. But have to. And I’m missing my privacy. I’m now having difficulties sleeping coz all I hear are loud, grumpy snores coming from the other people in the room. My aunt has arrived from the States last weekend and according to my parents she deserves to have the second “ok space” in our house and that would be my room. Privacy matters to me a lot. I can’t even think how I survived sharing a room with my sister when we were younger. Today, it’s still the same. I’m not sure how I am surviving each day cohabiting with other people in one room. Not because I don’t want the company, its more of I feel most comfortable to do “my routine” without having to consider the presence of someone. On a positive note, the aunt who has just arrived is sooo obsessed with ballroom dancing and for me that’s a good vibe. I see her almost every morning dancing in our sala to the tune of latin songs doing chachacha, tango or anything that she fancies. But the one dance she’s really good at and she enjoys a lot is Argentine Tango. She has been to
I’ve been dealing with tons of things in the office lately. Its funny how sometimes, even if you have no idea about the thing that should be done, you just plunge into doing it because it is JUST needed. Yep that’s the difference between a corporate job and a freelance job. When a person is employed in a company, he has no other option but to cater to the demands of his post and his superior. Unlike when a person is a freelancer, he can just choose the things he will work with and the people he wants to work for at a certain time. Anyhow, at least there’s additional knowledge that comes with the experience even if you’re really not meant to experience it. I recalled some time in college, we were asked to cut out pictures in a magazine and create a title and story out of the pictures that we chose. It just popped on my mind this week. My story was called: “Deal with It”.
Also, part of the blame on why the past days have been packed goes to my officemate who left for
And speaking of greater heights, I’m undeniably in a crossroad at this point in time. I am planning to resign soon but I don’t have a contingency plan yet. My aunt and mom suggest that I go back to school and become a cosmetic surgeon (anu daw?!). A few of my friends think that I should be taking masters while I try to find my path. Some believe that the most sensible thing to do is to work abroad. Kaloka. Ang gulo. However, I know for certain that I want to write no matter what happens. This thinking-for-the-future craze is indeed a heavy load on my shoulder and it’s giving me bigger eyebags. Well life is not always a walk in the park. It’s almost always an uphill climb. I think I’m just used to strolling compared to hiking that’s why it’s a struggle for me.
Even so, my week did not end without an episode to perk up my weary body. A present surprised me in the middle of the week. Surprise as in with matching dilating of my eyelids and covering my mouth with one hand sa sobrang pagkasurpise. Someone’s keeping it real for me and I am speechless. I’ve read in a friend’s blog that giving presents such as flowers is so overrated. Well, the happiness that a person feels out of the gift doesn’t even equate to the price tag of that something. Minsan kasi ang hindi nasasabi ng bibig, nasasabi ng actions. It all boils down to the sincerity and intention of the giver. To each his own naman yan eh but I feel that it’s still okay to give those presents. Yeah, the flowers may wither after a few days, but the memory transcends time. One can never know how much joy it can give to a person who never expected to receive such. It’s true that it’s often done for customary purposes, pero sa mga taong hindi madalas magkita, sa mga taong namimiss ang isa’t isa pero busy sila, sa mga taong shy type, sa mga taong nagpaparamdam, malaking tulong ang ganung mga regalo. It may sound materialistic but trust me, sometimes the situation calls for it. It doesn’t need to be grand, doing it in the daily grind of life and in the mundane of things will do all the works. In my case, that was what happened.
Ang ending ng week na toh is kind of disappointing. Sometimes may mga bagay na planado na but still falters. Anyway, I just hate the thought that you can’t be mad coz you perfectly understand the situation and because naintindihan mo alam mo kung anu ang ipaprioritize.
It feels great to able to write all these. Its giving me a new stance for the week ahead. At least the bottled thoughts and emotions are out. Til next time.
