snow white

How do you deal with an older sister whose face mimics of a 20 year-old miss and whose body screams the word sexiness?! Extremely difficult to handle.

Since we were kids, she has been acting as the Snow White while I am the insecure Witch Queen. She is the hallmark of beauty that never aged with time. At some point, I was almost convinced that she has been to the fountain of youth, judging from how she looks like after getting married and bearing a daughter.

She can command anyone's attention by just strutting her own style. She's a total head turner amidst her simple ways of making making herself look attractive. When entering a room, she's the first one that gets noticed except if the people are my friends.. but yes even my friends notice her first sometimes.

She gets to wear figure-hugging blouses and tight-fitting jeans. She can pull off wearing mini skirts and spags anytime she wants. She can even wear summer outfits during cold months all because her body fits well with any type of clothing. On the other hand, I remain loyal to a wardrobe which I think flatters my body.

She has always been a doll to the public. Always receiving praises of her childlike face and tempting figure. While I, submerge into that dark spot waiting for a gesture of appreciation.

So tell me how do you deal with it?

For twenty-two years I've managed to create my own formula to serve as an antidote. If you are in the same boat, I'll let you in on this:

Accept that she's pretty and sexy but know that you can top that.

Pauline

written: Oct. 23, 2007

It would have been easy for me to have a puppy a long long time ago if only my family (except for my brother) was a little bit more compassionate to animals. My mom hated dogs because of their smell. We once had a dog named casper but he died. I guess if casper had the chance to talk, he would have crushed our hearts by scolding us on how he was treated in the house. I was young then, I just let others handled him the way they wished. Therefore after having casper, no other dog followed.

So a trip to Bioresearch last Oct. 20 was something ordinary. I was just dragged by everyone. My brother, who for some reason after buying a number of animals seems to be building a mini zoo at the back of our house, persuaded my parents to take a look inside Bioresearch. Going there for me was a chance to view firsthand everything my brother narrated to us, nothing more.

When we entered the place, different kinds of aquatic animals welcomed us. My mom, a cousin of mine and I led the tour. Upon approaching the next section of the animals that were displayed, my cousin and mom pointed towards something. When I looked onto the direction where there eyes focused, I saw a big box, one that's a bit rustic and has been used to contain a printer. Inside the box were three golden brown, curly haired, cute puppies that wiggled and peeped onto our side. Delighted, I immediately ran towards it. I touched the puppy one by one as if it was the first time that I was able to see puppies. I really felt overwhelmed. I kept on touching and playing with them until my dad and brother saw us. They too had the same reaction. And to my surprise, everyone adored the puppies, even my mom and dad.

We asked the man and woman sitting beside the box regarding the whereabouts of the puppies. They told us that the breed of the puppies is poodle and that they were going to sell it to Bioresearch. I was shocked when my dad instantly proposed to the them to just sell 2 puppies to Bioresearch and let us buy the remaining one. The couple hesitated. They told us that they already committed the three poodles to Bioresearch. My dad kept on insisting. And so after a few minutes, the couple finally said yes and instructed us to make the deal with them outside Bioresearch. At the parking lot, when we were about to pay and the couple was suppose to hand the papers of one of the puppies, an officer of Bioresearch approached the couple and asked them regarding the puppies. The wife was summoned by the manager and so we had to wait for them to finish talking before we can buy the puppy.

While waiting, I already carried with me the poodle that we were suppose to get. I chose her among the three puppies because her color is different from the two. Hers is darker and warm. She has an inviting eyes, and there's a certain sweetness and playfulness by the way she behaves. When the wife came back, we received a bad news from her. Bioresearch did not want to get just two puppies. Hence, we were not allowed to buy one.

Everyone felt really sad. But I guess I was the saddest because on our way home I never stopped talking about my adoration for the poodle. Initially, I was already telling everyone that my dream came true. I was hoping for a puppy all this time. However, we went home empty handed...

...Not for a long time. Before we arrived at our house, my dad got a call from the owner telling him that one of the poodles was still with them and they would like to sell it to us. All of us were uplifted. Suddenly my brother was in high spirits again and everyone was smiling. I told mom, alas this time around my dream is not just a dream anymore... it's going to be real. As real as touching and cuddling the puppy when we met with the couple. They disclosed how they were able to get away with selling only two puppies. The wife said, she knows the feeling of having a puppy that you really like and she knew how we felt when we were not able to get the poodle. She confessed that when she saw me handing back the poodle, she felt sad as well. And so she talked to the veterinarian of Bioresearch and begged him for the longest time to give away one pup. I think going home that moment was one of our happiest trip of going home.

We call our poodle Pauline. The reason? Nothing special. After brainstorming a hundred names of pups, we ended up going back to one of our first choices. Pauline.

Pauline is a blessing. She makes us smile. She brings out everyone's kindness. She gathers us in one place. Pauline lets us feel as if we are a child again taking care and taking full responsibility of his first pet.

PAULINE

Original Name: Chardin of Ridgemont Club
Breed: Poodle
Sex: Female
Birth date: August 18, 2007
Color: Apricot
PCCI Reg. No.: 11948A7

against the tides

Sometimes you just know...

I think I am destined for a greater cause. I think my footsteps will mark a path different from the usual ones. I want to see the world. I want to know what else is there. I want to know if it is really as splendid as most would describe it. I think I have to take a leap. I think I have to listen to myself, to realize my houghts and follow the beat of my heart. I think I will be happy to meet different kinds of people. I think I want to write well and converse well. I think I should take that time off from the usual environment that I was brought up so that I will know what I am capable of doing. I think I have yet to unfold my greatness. I think I will soar high and spread my wings if I will just focus and believe in myself. I think its time to be brave and patient.

stupid

written oct. 15, 07

I missed the second session of my dance class all because of that stupid meeting. I call it stupid coz instead of clearing things in the office it has worsened the awful feeling that’s building inside of me.

Now I know how it feels like when one has to suck it up. You know that time when your so much in agony coz you cannot do what you’ve planned for the reason that you gotta do what you’ve got to do.

We were suppose to join the Rumba class. Too bad I needed to stay two hours more. I knew I should have just left earlier without informing anyone. But that would be rude… kind of imagined the reaction of my boss.

At least my dance class dream finally materialized last Monday. That was our first dance session. We were taught to dance Chacha. I found the steps easy. I think I could have just browsed the net for instructional videos or pix and I’d still end up learning how to dance it same way in the dance class. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the session very much. Just the thought of dancing is already a bliss to me. Plus, my friend was also there, we were partners by the way. So made all my efforts of going there worth it.

Hopefully, next week I’ll be able to attend the third session. I don’t want to waste the money that I shed for the dance fee, much more waste my gusto for dancing.

burst

To be happy right now is a little bit hard to do. I have a headache and it’s because I had a long day today.

I cried two times.

First was when my boss cried in front of me.

Second was when I realized I won’t be ok with what will happen.

I need a hug. I need a corny joke. I need a hand to hold.

Feels like I’m about to burst.

wristwatch

There is no stopping me from loving wristwatches! I loooooooveee them! Although I'm confused how I ended up liking those intricate timepieces, I'm glad I did. I want to have a collection. But my collection won't be base on certain factors like for instance the brand, or origin, or resale value. I just want to get a hold of watches that make me wanna stay awake all night when its not in my hands yet. Watches that do not only speak of time but also converse the owner's mood or personality. I kind of inherited this addiction from my dad. He seems to be stuck in the wristwatch craze as well. But unlike me, his taste is more of sophistication and value. I on the other hand, don't mind wearing groovy or big or bizarre wristwatches as long as I feel that there is a connection between me and the wristwatch. Usually, I opt for watches that are unique, chic and stylish. Doesn't matter the value, although I always fall into the pricey ones.

Believe me, obtaining a wristwatch that I really like can put a smile on my face even on the most deadly days. I think that there's just something special to this kind of jewelry. Watches are subtle yet significant. When I wear a wristwatch it gives me a certain pride that I am able to wear it. It is the only jewelry that cannot be worn with another one at the same moment. It is made for a purpose and also crafted for attraction. Compared to a necklace, ring or bracelet, a watch is carefully made for precision. It amazes me that inside a tiny container are so many details that work together to create a function. I choose to have a wristwatch than any other jewelry because I feel that it is uncommon, more sensible and charming.






And to add up to my newly started collection, an 8066L Alexander Christie, a gift from my last birthday.













What better way to preserve the fineness of wristwatches than to clean and care for them. The link below will direct you to a site where "Watch Care and Handling" are discussed.

Watch Care and Handling

dabarkads

Golly I'm psyched we've all managed to come together in one place again. Not that we were all present literally but at least majority was there. Credit belongs to Kym =P I've got to say its one of my most memorable day this year.. thinking that its been almost 3 or so years since we had like this. I'm really blessed to have these people in my life. Although we tread our own paths, our hearts remain intact.

Still feels like high school days.. just more stories to tell and no more curfews =)


when: Oct. 6, 2007
where: Kym's place
what: despedida/get together

how do you say...

"Hello sis, san na kayo?
Whaat? Bakit ang tagal niyo dyan?
Di na kami susunod. Layo niyan eh. Dito na lang kami mag-antay sa loob ng Rustans.
Oo, dito sa may..... sa...... Shu....
sa Shu.... Shu Uem... (palingon-lingon sa paligid kung meron taong nakikinig)
Basta dito sa tapat ng Dunhill, to your right pag galing escalator."


I need to stop twisty terrible tongue twister brand names from torturing me. Especially those notorious French and German fashion labels. As much as I enjoy looking at their products, it annoys me that I cannot sometimes ask a saleslady about the merchandise for the reason that I am not sure how to pronounce the brand. Likewise, when engaged in a conversation it's such a burden to mention some designers and boutiques. It's quite embarrassing to say words incorrectly.

I browsed the net and found some sites which offer audio files to help people pronounce brand names. They're pretty helpful. A person may not have the means to buy those expensive goods (like me) but at least he may be able to speak the brands decently.

Read on. Although it requires a lot of patience and it cannot be learned overnight, it may somehow help.


1.) Designer Pronunciations

2.) German Words

3.) Watch Brand Names

DTWS

While surfing the web for dance videos... I discovered this:

Apolo Anton Ohno

- American short track speed skating competitor
- two time gold medalist in the Winter Olympics
- has won five Olympic medals over his career
- has been the reigning U.S. short track speed skating champion since 2001
- has won the U.S. men's title a total of eight times






for more of AAO, click this: Apolo Anton Ohno



Julianne Hough




- American Professional ballroom dancer and television celebrity
- youngest and only American to gain the titles of Junior Blackpool World Latin Champion and International Youth Champion
- became an assistant choreographer in Gwen Stefani's "Wind It Up" music video
- third professional to win a Dancing With The Stars Championship
- has a hit single "Will You Dance With Me"





for more of JH, click this: Julianne Hough



So what's the point of the info?


It's because I'm hooked with their "Dancing With The Stars" performances. Actually they joined the fourth season of DTWS and became the Champion.




Below are my favorites...



Apolo & Julianne - Rumba

Apolo & Julianne - Samba

Apolo & Julianne - Pasa Doble

Apolo & Julianne - Waltz

Apolo & Julianne - Mambo

Apolo & Julianne - Freestyle

Apolo & Julianne - Chacha

Apolo & Julianne - Quickstep

random

Agnes De Mille once said that "To dance is to be out of yourself, larger, more beautiful, more powerful."

I'd like to experience that.

I'd like to be insanely comfortable to move with grace, to swing my hips.. do crossovers and grapevines, to glide and to turn without hesitation...

I'd like to know if I can be one with my body, if I can command myself to extend my arm longer, jump higher and do a routine better than I would have imagined I would do it...

I'd like to take my audience into a reverie.. I'd like to cast a spell on them, like nothing in the world exists except the dancer in front. I'd like to make each step, each wiggle a word and each dance a story.

I'd like to dance and not give a damn.

sudden

I'm alarmed that in the span of one week, three death news has come to my awareness. First is the death of my best friend's grandfather, the primary reason why little lulu is in town right now. Next is the death of my officemate's brother-in-law. And the latest is the passing away of my boss in my previous employer. The common denominator of the three is the word "sudden".

1st story:
Daddy (the name we call for the grandfather of little lulu) passed away because of heart attack. Everybody was shocked coz Daddy did not have a history of heart attack. It was told that he began to have chest pains in the afternoon of September 28. Due to the intensity of the pain, he was immediately brought to a nearby medical clinic. The doctor who examined him advised the person who was with Daddy to bring him to a bigger medical establishment. While on the way to the hospital, Daddy died. He died because of heart attack and he died the same day that he got the chest pains.

2nd story:
His family was suppose to celebrate the accomplishment of his son but being an On-call Engineer of Meralco, the brother-in-law of my officemate went to work on a Sunday. An unexpected concern from a Meralco subscriber prompted him to go on duty. He told his son to wait for him. He returned home lifeless. It was his cold body that greeted the longing heart of his family.

3rd story:
Stuck in traffic and already furious, my previous boss had a fight with a lawyer. The lawyer made a counterflow along Shaw Boulevard, my previous boss got irritated by the move and began a spat with the lawyer. As morbid as the reaction of the lawyer may sound, he shot my former boss. The girl who was with him got out of the car hoping to ease the argument, she was shot as well. Right there and then, two people died just because of traffic.


I feel for the family and friends of Daddy, my officemate's brother-in-law and my previous boss. For the hearts who are grieving, I pray that God will give you comfort and strength. Let's keep our faith strong. Condolence.

testing slide.com

Tried slide.com. Made a presentation for my debut pix. Didn't really have any remembrance that looks something like this. I just had a copy of the plain video and an album. So I decided to use the pictures for a little experiment and see how slide.com works.